“You don’t wanna go out of this world with regrets. If there’s something you want to do, you do it. You take this life by the balls and tell it that you existed.”
-Tommy Wallach, We All Looked Up
I just finished reading We All Looked Up by Tommy Wallach, such a great read-really gets you thinking about how life passes you by. It’s the stories of four people after they discover they possibly only have two months to live after discovering that an asteroid may hit Earth. Two months to really live. It reminds us that we need to look up!! Life is moving faster than you can imagine, and you need to make sure you’re making the most of it. These are stories of love, passion, and simply realizing how many more cups of coffee will this girl have before she possibly dies in two months. Damn, if you have dreams, go out and make them happen. If you like someone, tell them. Whatever the case may be, confessing to your crush that you like them, start that singing career you always wanted, or truly savor that strong cup of coffee. Although an asteroid probably truly isn’t coming for Earth, maybe we should start living like we only have two months left–it gets us to do the things we were always too shy to do. We have so many beautiful dreams and passions that we are either too nervous to pursue, in denial that it’s possible, or are simply afraid of stepping out of our comfort zones. No one is stopping us from acting on our dreams except ourselves. If you feel like someone else is stopping you, know that what you want for yourself makes it worth acting on that dream despite someone else thinking you shouldn’t. Look up, look at your life, and start truly living.
My first ever college residence hall and I couldn’t have asked for anything better! This is something I wrote while living in the Sem but never shared it. Happy Thursday 🙂
Community: There’s nothing greater than the bond the Sem kids have together because we are isolated from the rest of campus. We get stuck together on snow days. Somehow, we don’t get sick of each other (for the most part).
Megan and Janet: Megan’s sass and Janet’s perkiness are nothing short of a comedy show as they serve you dinner in the Sem caf. They are a dynamic duo.
Sem Brunch: Waking up at noon on Saturday and Sunday morning and heading down to get pancakes and crispy cubes from Sem brunch is awesome. People trek across campus for this breakfast.
Library: It’s awesome to do homework in your pajamas right downstairs and then head up to bed at 1am when you finally finish your work. It’s especially convenient when you don’t have to go out in the cold!
Chapel: Having the Chapel for mass every Tuesday at 9p.m. is great!
Ricky’s emails: Every sem kid looks forward to Ricky’s emails on Thursdays. They’re always hilarious with songs, GIFs, or funny pictures. Thanks Ricky!
Endless Ben and Jerry’s Ice Cream: Unlike the commons, the sem always has pints of Ben and Jerry’s in the freezer. It’s so good but so bad at the same time, mostly good.
Being close to the Sports Complex, better known as the spoco. We have the shortest walk to the gym. Although, if you don’t go the gym, you might feel a little more guilty because it’s only a two minute walk away.
The Walk of Shame is much longer for a sem kid after a night out on the weekend. Some even ask for a campo escort back because it’s too far. Guilt with every step.
We Walk This Path Together! Every sem kid has to deal with the trek to class from as early as 7:30 to get to an 8am or coming back from class that ends at 9pm, rain or shine. A run to the hill for a late night bite is more like a field trip because we are on the opposite side of campus. We all do it.
All of my fellow Sem friends and myself will forever be Sem kids. Sem Love ❤
“I’m gonna use the bathroom.” “I’ll come with you.”
Okay, sometimes it might be an exaggeration, but people of this generation like to go anywhere with someone by their side. I get it; there can be anxiety of sitting alone or showing up to some event by yourself. Lately though, I notice people waiting for their food alone. I feel bad seeing someone sit by themselves. Their cell phone is their company. They scroll through their Twitter, Instagram, and Facebook feeds for companionship and to make sitting alone feel a little less lonely.
I feel a little conflicted when talking about this. I am so invested in including anyone who sits alone, always asking if they want to join my friends and I. But, if you think about it, a lot of friends sitting together also look at their phones rather than enjoying the physical people sitting next to or across from them. What would the difference be from sitting alone on your phone to sitting with others also on their phones? I think my friends are super good about this, appreciating the company around them, rather than reading about the lives of others via social media. Yeah, sometimes we’re on our phones when the conversation dies down, or if we want to show our friends something we saw online or a picture we have.
I’ve just been thinking about it. We get a anxious to some degree when we have to go places alone, but everyone uses their phone. What is there to say about loneliness or going it alone if people always look to their phone to keep them company?
Why talk about this, you ask? I want this culture to change. We are a generation that is addicted to social media; we cannot go anywhere without knowing our phone is charged or having Twitter to check when things feel awkward in real human conversation. Real human conversation, who knew it might feel awkward sometimes?! I guess my point is, and I know I’ve written about it before, but live in the moment, seriously. Embrace the awkwardness; it’ll make for a memory. That tweet about your favorite TV show or about someone needing a nap will be there to read when dinner is over.
So, I know this is supposed to be about chaos, and this moment may not look so chaotic to you. In retrospect, it kind of was. It was one of those moments where you want to experience every single second, absorb it, take it all in. This moment captured by my mom in her seat, ready to watch me cross the stage and receive my high school diploma, was part of an experience that felt like chaos. The graduating class of 2015 from MHS was all jittery, excited, and every feeling in between prior to this moment. Looking back it feels chaotic, because I remember a few moments clearly, but graduation was chaotic in its entirety. The moment felt so surreal. It was one of those moments where so much happens, you might forget to acknowledge that it is happening. Looking back at this photo, I’m so glad my mom captured it. I know in this moment that I was probably nervously smiling because I hate when all eyes are on me. But, I also know I was proud of myself for this accomplishment. The blurriness of the photo and the blurriness of the memory ensues chaos in my mind. It’s an experience that you want every minute to be remembered, but the chaos of the time makes only a few moments clear. But those clearest of moments, they’re beautifully chaotic.
We all want that clumsy kind of love. The kind of love that makes you stumble over your words because their smile while they listen to you speak is so adorable. The clumsy kind of love that makes you literally clumsy–tripping because you’re too busy looking at them to pay attention to where you’re going. The kind of love where you giggle at the stupidest of jokes, because anything they do makes your heart sing. The clumsy kind of love that makes foolishly dancing in front of everyone more than worth it if it makes them happy. The kind of love where you’re goofy, all the time. You’re so happy that you can’t help but brighten those around you. The kind of love where their eyes are oceans that you could swim in forever. The love that finds sunshine in the dreariest days, happiness in the darkest of times. That first love but also forever love kind of feeling, where it all feels natural but you also can’t help but get butterflies as you look them in the eyes. The kind of love that is worth being clumsy for.
Back at the hill for year two! About a month in! Can I get a HILL YEAH? I hope all college, high school, or any other students are enjoying their year so far back at school. Me, you ask? It’s been great! Some days are stressful, such as yesterday–spending the day in the library until 1am, one of my FAVE things!!! Anyways, this semester for me has been a lot of reading and I’m still adjusting to my schedule, but I’m having a good year so far! I don’t really agree with syllabus week being a breeze, most of my professors just jump right into the work and you need to be ready for it.
The new year brings a series of changes that may be great or upsetting. You see lots of new faces, but hardly see old ones! You live in a new dorm with new people, and have to adjust to simple changes in your everyday routine. A new school year gives you the opportunity to meet new people, take new classes, participate in more clubs, and continue to make your school year and experience all you hope for it to be!
This year feels SO much different than last year for me, in a variety of ways! I’m now living more centrally on campus, which is great for getting places more efficiently. However, my dorm lacks the community feel that I had last year. I don’t even know all of the girls on my floor! My friends and I have made some freshmen friends who ROCK. They bring so much sunshine into my day! Unfortunately, I don’t see a lot of the same people as often this year-I miss you!! I’m really enjoying my classes and I’m already tired of dining hall food. But who isn’t?? Despite not seeing old faces, I have so many things to look forward to this year and so many wonderful people to share it with! I have no doubts about having a good year 🙂
Some of my friends are pretty stressed in their adjustment to this year-new responsibilities, heavy workload, and other things going on. I think all of us struggle a little at the start of every new year, change causes that! I hope you all find the courage to persevere and embrace it! It might be just what you need 🙂
I hope this new school year treats you all well, you deserve it!
At Stonehill, I am apart of the Creative Writing Club! On Thursday, our prompt was “An impersonator is taking over your life in every aspect. Give them instructions.” I decided to focus mine on my life at Stonehill and this is what I wrote. It gives you a little look into my life at school, and my likes and dislikes!
Your name is Rachel Riani. You are a sophomore English major with a double minor in Creative Writing and Philosophy at Stonehill College. Your favorite book is The Catcher in the Rye and you love writing on your blog. You eat lots of sushi, yogurt, and peanut butter. You know a lot of people on campus. Say hello to people, smile at them. Even if they don’t look like they recognize you, smile anyway. I sometimes do that. If people say my name and they seem excited, run up to them to give them a hug! I do that a lot, too.You always get the turkey florentine panini at the hill. Don’t switch it up, my friends would get suspicious. Wear lots of purple or Stonehill clothing. Help my friends open their mailboxes, that’s my designated job in the friend group. Sit in Ace’s Place in the library-that’s where I’m known for studying. Little tip for your own comfort, the booths are the best. Drink iced chai lattes and order pumpkin coffee at dunkin donuts. Black. To recharge your batteries, you watch Netflix on my laptop. When you’re hanging out in my room and my roommate asks what you’re watching, say Gilmore Girls or Grey’s Anatomy. Laugh randomly during episodes. Yes, I literally laugh out loud when I watch a show by myself. My roommate won’t question it. If you get a text from a guy named Bill, that’s my boss from my work at home. Always reply with excitement. Throw in a cat emoji here and there, too. It’ll make him laugh. Make sure to text my mom at least once a day, she’ll call if you don’t. Your voice isn’t exactly like mine. Oh, and don’t lose my snapchat streaks. That’ll make the real me sad. I hope you enjoy my life as much as I do. Best of luck!
Maybe give this prompt a try! You might learn a little about yourself 🙂 If you do, link it in the comments! I’d love to read it!
I feel like I have written a lot on this blog about knowing your worth–whether it be in a poem or about that one boy….
Today is not much different. Lately I have been thinking about how much I care about my friends and how much I value certain friendships…but how much do they value mine? I do not think I am in any friendship that is not wanted; I think everyone I’m friends with wants to be my friend. However, I think that recently I have been placing value on friendships that are not making me feel happy–I have been putting in so much effort with nothing in return. I go out of my way or intentionally put them first, only to have what seems no interest in response. If it isn’t making me feel good and happy, why put so much effort into something?
Coincidentally, I read two short poems on Twitter the other day that are definitely friendly reminders for how I have been feeling lately…
“When you start seeing your worth, you’ll find it harder to stay around people who don’t.” – Worth by Emily S.P.
“People make time for who they want to make time for. People text and reply to people they want to talk to. Never believe anyone who says they’ve been too busy. If they wanted to be around you, they would.” – Unknown
These hit the nail right on the head for the things I needed to tell myself and remind myself that I am worth people’s time. I will continue to focus on friendships that give me the love and effort I deserve and that remind myself of my worth. I was having lunch with a good friend of mine the other day who has been putting less effort into a friendship because it made her feel crappy. I do not want to lose any friendships, but I want to be sure that all of my friends care to make the time for me as I do for them.
I hope this blog today reminds you of how much you are worth and that anyone would be lucky to spend time with you! Reminder: You don’t have to try so hard ❤
It was a cold day but the sun shined brightly. The woman laughs as she picks up the child. The neighbor across the street shoveled his snowy driveway and the sidewalk that bordered his front lawn. The sun continued to shine on them that it began to warm their faces. The white hat covered the baby’s small head and ears. The woman stopped laughing but she maintained a smile on her face. The snowy driveway that distracted the child made the baby anxious to be put down and go explore. The mother adjusted the scarf on the baby’s neck. The woman has dimples as she smiles brightly at the child. “Wait, take another photo! She wasn’t looking at the camera!”
An assignment from my class yesterday based on a photo from February 1939 of two women and a baby; I had to create a description and story for what was happening in this moment in nine sentences with one line of dialogue.